Letter from your son.

Dear father,

 Today is 23rd of April. Which only have one meaning to me. It is your 53rd birthday J . Sincerely I have problem with memorizing people’s birthday including you but thankfully my sister had told me earlier before midnight. The night of your birthday. With this hard to memorizing problem I had, I felt as if I had failed to be good son. It might seem nothing but to me your birthday should be celebrated not only today but every day. I am grateful that god gave me chance to keep on breathing and still have the chance to talk to you and spend my time with you.

But lately I have not spent most of my time with you. For some teenagers reason parts of me just wanted to hang out with my friend and some of it with my family. We might spend some time eating and chatting in front of the tv or well most of the time just watching tv in silent. I never think those were the kind of quality time with you I seek. Deep in my heart I truly wanted you to stop working and me myself give all of what I have for you to spend. Give you all what you ever dream of what you wanted to have. 

Going on a vacation together was the kind of quality time that I can ever think of. I wish we could do more than that. You tried to give some advice sometimes but us, your children sometimes rebel against you and tried to give our own opinion. But every time you gave me those advices I will try and keep on hold to it. 

With everything that you gave to me, I never think that I can ever repay it with any kind of price in any form. It sickens me to think of one day that you will be gone and I might not have the chance to see you again. I am sure that I will never be ready for that day. There is always a pain in my chest that scares of that day. My eyes feels heavy as in I am about to cry as I am writing this letter right now. But in sha Allah :’) I will try my best in my best effort I will try to be a solleh(Good) son that you hope I would be.

I might not be as good as you expected but with god will. I will pray hard that I will be and for you I will always pray jannah(heaven) for you. I don’t know how to show how deep I feel towards my family but I will try in many ways so you and the others will understand what am I trying to tell.

I always wish the best for you dad. If you ever read this letter I wrote I just hope you know that I love you. Happy birthday dad.

-Airaz-