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Peace upon the readers,

It has been a long time since i blog something tho. In the time i was gone for a while in this insane world i had done a lot of thinking. So much of thinking just made me feel so helpless in helping myself. This is not good.

Well, i don't expect people to read this but this is about how a flesh a meat that pumps those oxygen carrier through our body feels like theres a crack in it's flow and the flesh itself start to feel like dying. This is just too emo for the kind of people like me.

I believe there is happiness but between all of those things in this world we could not get everything. For example, you can only ever achieve 2/3 of what you want. If you want fame you could get wealth but not happiness and if you want to be happy you could not simply have all such as looks and other thing that you dream of.

So what i am telling here is that i am not even any near to 2/3 of what i am saying. I am grateful with what i have but as a normal human being it is normal to have that feeling to have someone that love you the way you are even though you had done mistakes to them.I hate this feelings SOOO FUCKING MUCH!.

I have this problem when everytime i try to talk to someone and they are staring at me in the face ready to listen to whatever that i am going to say and suddenly another person came and talk to them and the person trying to listen to what i am saying just forgot i am there. Oblivion. I fucking hate that. I dont want to be remembered but i just wish that i am not forgotten.

Yeah, i am fucking emo tonight.

I am sorry for all the harsh word i wrote.
That is all for now. Peace out.